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Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

PLEASE READ THE WHOLE THING OR IT WILL MAKE ME REALLY UPSET!!!

My life is really confusing right now. My dad passed away last year as you all know. And now my mom isnt doing so well. I am currently at my grandparents house, and i will be staying there for the next few months. I dont know where my brother and my sisters are. My 3 year old sister is here but my other siblings went somewhere else. I am outside of dallas a bit. Im just really confused about my life right now. With school starting next month i dont have time to be on here, i have to keep my grades up. Im really sorry. All my friends i remember even from two years ago. Through those two years, i have made TWO really really really important friends in my life. But before i tell you that. I am going to tell you the mistakes i made in my life that i am not proud of. When my dad passed away, i fell into a depression. I went to parties and everything and did some things i am not proud of. Those choices greatly affected my life and the people around me. I had some problems that i would never have gotten out of without my best friend, Bergeron4444, i know its weird that a person online could so greatly affect my life, but he did. He actually lifted me out of that problem and made me a stronger person. Even when i was doing these things, i was still a strong believer in christ and after i got out of those problems. I dedicated my life to him. Some people say i could be a preacher or a counselor or something, just because i am good with people. The other really really important friend i met was Seb or RR. He has so greatly impacted my life i could not describe in words. His courage and attitude makes me feel happier and willing to do things. He truly is a great friend, and he is my master at GFX. :). I am not leaving becasue of any PEOPLE here or USERS or anyone. Its because its a choice that me and god made, that we think is better for my future. I know some of you might be sad. But DONT LEAVE BECAUSE OF ME. THAT WOULD MAKE ME CRAZY!!! I dont really understand, like how you guys can leave this AMAZING forum, its got so much oppurtunity for you guys, and the users here are great. You cant let things get in your head. You cant let the people here make your choices. And the most important thing is that you have to move on. My life wouldnt have been the same without this babyish online game. The people i met here impacted my lifes with their stories and words. The most important thing i learned was that, life doesnt end when something fails, but a new chapter is written into your life. I conquered many things while playing this game. Some people dont like me and some people very greatly respect me. I want to thank the staff for just making this forum anyway, haha, you guys really have been great with this. *whispers* DONT LET THE USERS SAY YOU ARENT DOING GOOD*whispers*. I feel like i havent been helping you guys to the foolest. Which is another reason i am leaving. Even though my mom might leave this earth in body i will not be affected as greatly as i was with my dad's life. Things were hard without one parent. But me and god are ready for the challenge if i dont have any. Everyone i have met in this game, believe it or not, has impacted me and changed a little bit of my mindset. I am not going to make a huge list of my deepest friends, cause that just hurts feelings. You all contributed to my life, and you all were really fun to be with. Even though this is a goodbye. Dont forget me. I always want to put an imprint on someone wherever i go. Its what God has called me to do. You can call me stupid or whatever or dumb or mean. But you could also say im honest, trustworthy, and respectful.

I would like my modship removed on Wednesday July 30th, just to see how things go between now and then. I know whatever the staff decides will be the right choice.

Lastly, I want to thank you guys because you have been so great, and you guys are really smart and cool kids. Its been a great pleasure to moderate you all. Ha.

If you want to talk to me my AIM is dirkdcp

Goodbye CPP, I wont forget what you have done,

~Cole

Forum Legend Posts : 6175 Registration date : 2008-02-23

Good bye DirkD.
You were a great mod and friend, though I didn't show it, I looked up to you. You pulled through after your dad's death. I wish I could just change alitte and hope it would be like you.

Super-Human Posts : 3072 Registration date : 2008-01-26

:) I feel the same way dude but im holding up

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Tri-Egde. You dont know how important that feels to someone when you say you want to be like them or you look up to them. You were a great friend. I know we didnt talk much, but you are a very smart kid.

Hero for Hire Posts : 1341 Registration date : 2008-01-26

Hard to believe you're actually leaving. I know we didn't talk that much (well, never :face: ) but, I'll miss you anyway. Good luck with life, and anything else you plan to accomplish.

Forum Legend Posts : 6175 Registration date : 2008-02-23

:-)
Thank you. You remind me alot of my cousin. His older brother (Ryan) died and it was really tough for him. He started smoking and stuff. But he pulled through. He is a HUGE role model for me. I hope I can see him when I go to Salem.

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Haha, dale i always watched you. You are a great leader and i wish i would've gotten to talk to you more.

Remember my aim is dirkdcp

Hero for Hire Posts : 1341 Registration date : 2008-01-26

:D. Thanks, yeah, I don't really IM people out of my real life, if I have a down moment, I'll IM you.

Edit: I'm going to bed, so reply if you wish, but don't expect one from Mr Dale..

Super-Human Posts : 3143 Registration date : 2008-06-03

Aww... No. Soar away...

I hope i can still talk with you on MSN.
Now.. Who can we trust as new mod. You are an amazing mod, We wouldn't trade you for $10,000.

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Please dont talk about new mods in this thread. :(

Super-Human Posts : 3143 Registration date : 2008-06-03

Sorry if i hurt your feelings.

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Just the staff will take care of it.

Forum Legend Posts : 6175 Registration date : 2008-02-23

Cole...
Will you ever comeback? Or are you gonna become a lost memory like Cheif Spy?

Forum Legend Posts : 6186 Registration date : 2008-07-07

Dirk O: NO! I really liked u as a friend...we didn't hang out much but we have talked. I'm really sorry with the family issues. Infact, my closer family members died. :( I wish u the best.

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Tri-Edge wrote:: Cole...
Will you ever comeback? Or are you gonna become a lost memory like Cheif Spy?

I might stop by to post

Forum Legend Posts : 6175 Registration date : 2008-02-23

Good. Another good mod and person is something this forum can't afford to lose.

Subject: Re: Leaving... July 27th 2008, 1:06 am

I knew this was happening, they will all go soon enough...

Subject: Re: Leaving... July 27th 2008, 1:07 am

I respect youre decision very much Cole. I hope everything turns out great. If it doesnt..im right here. God bless youre mom..well theres still AIM. :)

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

adsertif123 wrote:: I knew this was happening, they will all go soon enough...

That happens on cpp, like i said a while ago when dark left. Its going to be a new era. I have been thinking about this for a while. Just this feels like the right time with my mom not doing so good.

Yeah RR, i will make sure to update you on my life.

Forum Legend Posts : 6865 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Aww jeez, I would be cryinbg but I'm at a friends how. ;)
Remember when we tald each other our cities then we discussed hunting up in archer or somewhere? That was the only time we ever talked. I'll miss you buddie.

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Wizard wrote:: Aww jeez, I would be cryinbg but I'm at a friends how. ;)
Remember when we tald each other our cities then we discussed hunting up in archer or somewhere? That was the only time we ever talked. I'll miss you buddie.

Lol yeah, archer is where my deer lease is. :D I remember that.

Forum Legend Posts : 6865 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Cole wrote:

Wizard wrote:: Aww jeez, I would be cryinbg but I'm at a friends how. ;)
Remember when we tald each other our cities then we discussed hunting up in archer or somewhere? That was the only time we ever talked. I'll miss you buddie.

Lol yeah, archer is where my deer lease is. :D I remember that.

Jeez, we musyt have sent eachother 40 PMs.

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Wizard wrote:

Cole wrote:

Wizard wrote:: Aww jeez, I would be cryinbg but I'm at a friends how. ;)
Remember when we tald each other our cities then we discussed hunting up in archer or somewhere? That was the only time we ever talked. I'll miss you buddie.

Lol yeah, archer is where my deer lease is. :D I remember that.

Jeez, we musyt have sent eachother 40 PMs.

Haha yeah, those were the days. Lol.

Forum Legend Posts : 6865 Registration date : 2008-01-27

WHat exactly is wrong with your mom?

Paragon Posts : 7114 Registration date : 2008-01-27

Cancer... its really serious right now.

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