If you have you know how I'm feeling.

Recently, I've been feeling like, basically, a hollow, empty shell. I think I have atypical depression or dysthmia because I can relate to all of the symptoms. Apparently those are mental disorders, but not like you would think- it doesn't lower my intelligence at all, it just gives me a poorer self image, makes me pessimistic, etc. This all started back in March, but I can't remember exactly how. All I can remember is what I believe in being made fun of and gazing out my window, then seeing a very large, black cloud blocking everything out. And that's it... I can remember it rained for almost a week after that and being picked up outside of school, rushing to my car to avoid the pouring rain, and feeling something in my heart drop as if I'd just lost a close friend, and then trying to hide it from my parents with a fake, wretched smile.